sentap

bismillah

assalamualaikum

lately, banyak sangat benda (read: peringatan) yang datang kat aku yang boleh kata buat sentap jugaklah. setakat sentap ngan kawan sebab dia lupa tunggu kita pi makan nak buat apa. buang karan. benda macam tu tak payah la nak fikir sangat kan.

macam yang  semua tahu jet jet ramai orang kenal aku kan. ok abaikan. mesti korang pernah rasa, ke aku je, rasa macam kita buat something macam okay je. amalan wajib buat je. sunat ada lerrr sikit sikit. tapi ni aku sendiri yang rasa benda ni bila kita sesuka je mintak doa nak itu nak ini. tapi our actions and deeds do not even reflect or show that we have been working like dmn hard to get all those things. haa macam alien tak bahasa dia. sila biasakan diri.

meh aku bagi contoh. benda yang orang lain mungkin dah lama sedar tapi aku lambat sikit. okay banyak. aku dapat whatsapp. biasanya aku tak layan sangat whatsapp panjang panjang sebab aku baca pun aku mesti lupa. okay dari yang panjang panjang tu satu ni je yang  aku ingat. see i told ya. pasal solat sunat dhuha.

okay solat sunat dhuha seperti yang diketahui umum sebagai pembawa rezeki dan semua orang mesti hafal doa dia kan. sedap kan, tapi apa yang nak sentap? yang menyentapkan aku bila dia sentuh kes tidur lepas subuh. and as everybody knows, sleeping after subh may lead to difficulties in getting rizq. meaning that it narrows your sources of rizq. can you guys see the contrasting situation there. while one opens the doors for rizq, the other one does vice versa. do we not feel ashamed for having our sleep after subh and let our rizq go away and get up again and ask Allah to give us more rizq. actually it hits me right at my face. then i sentap lahhh.

o allah give me some strength to make a change.

then tonight, while i was watching RM *tengah paper sempat lagi* i got a message saying that my friend's mother passed away. i was speechless clueless and just stared at my laptop. the images of my beloved parent, mama abah everybody at home were playing in my head. i was just sitting there doing nothing nor saying anything. until a friend of mine came and ask me whether i wanted to join them in surau for Yaseen and tahlil. i grabbed my jubah and scarf and followed them. during the Yaseen my tears just wouldnt stop. it kept rolling down. hingus apatah lagi. i was sad tapi apa yang buat aku lagi nangis is how strong my friend ni kawal diri dia. if it was me, i do not know if i can even get up and stand still like her. we waited for her until she was safely picked up by her cousins. but seriously, she is a strong girl.

Allah has said that death will come to you whenever and wherever you are. when it is time it will never be changed even for a second. every life will definitely taste death. oh Allah give us a husnul khatimah and not su'ul khatimah. allahumma aminn.

do pray for us. please be healthy and happy. fii Hifzillah :)

assalamualaikum

ALevel ends: 18 Days

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